This past week has been especially hard for me in terms of insecurities. For two reasons, I think.
One, I'm neck deep in edits and well, when all I'm looking at day after day are all the things that are wrong with my MS, it gets a little disheartening. I try to remind myself that I want these comments. I want to make it the best I possibly can and if no one told me the things that were wrong with it, I couldn't fix them. But, It's still discouraging to stare at all the things that I've done wrong.
Two, Thursday, Matthew over at QQQE featured my query letter. (Thank you so much Matthew!) I got some wonderful feedback and some great suggestions on how to make it better. It was however, the first time I've really put anything regarding AWAKENED out there. I got a few comments that were a little disheartening and made me question myself and my story, for about a day.
Then, I talked to some great friends, thank you, and they helped me realize it doesn't matter. I didn't make up the story. The story chose me to tell it. I know that there will be haters out there no matter what and I just have to grow my skin a little thicker. I love my story. I love my characters. And in the end... THAT is what really matters.
So, I'm buckling down, getting my edits done and redoing my query letter. Making them both the best I possibly can. And reminding myself that I'm doing this because I have to and I love it.
And if you believe in fate... then maybe you think it was looking out for me, 'cause tonight at dinner... here was my fortune cookie.
What do you think? Was it fate? Does editing get you down? Have these same issues? Any advice?