This is my first blog for the Insecure Writer's Support Group. I'm very excited to be apart of this group. Thank you to Alex for starting it. What a wonderful idea. If you'd like to check out his website here is the link: http://alexjcavanaugh.blogspot.com/p/insecure-writers-support-group.html
I think that whenever you try something new it takes a great deal of courage, especially if it's something that you really want to succeed in. Writing is this to me. I wanted to be a writer so bad, I dreamt about it all the time. When people asked me "if you could be anything, what would you be?" I would always answer a writer. What does a writer need to do well... write and that's what I'm afraid of.
Throughout my elementary into my middle school years we moved a lot. What difference does this make? To anyone who's ever moved to other schools, especially those out of state, you know that they all teach things at different times. Sometimes there were huge gaps in the things that I learned, therefore I suck at spelling and sentence structure. I try my hardest I really do, but I just plain suck at it. (Just ask my "editor" Kelly) (and I did go to college too) What writer doesn't know how to write?
I am afraid I won't be good enough. That people will look at my writing and say, "She doesn't even know how to write properly, how could she possibly write a book." The last two weeks I came into a rough patch with my WIP (work in progress to those who don't know, I didn't a week ago.) I stalled on a chapter and couldn't write. Then I started doubting my ability, thinking why did I think that I could possibly write a book. I wasn't a writer, I was a nurse. Where did I get off trying to pretend I was something I wasn't. I had to tell myself repeatedly that I could. The few people who have read my WIP also have been invaluable in their support and encouragement. Also, in the two weeks that I have been blogging and on twitter I have meet so many wonderful encouraging people.
We all have self doubts and insecurities, I believe it's how we deal with them that says the most about us.